Which track do I take in life?
Updated: Jul 4
Recently, I made a huge decision which in reality was not that hard to make. Thinking about making that decision was harder than the action it took to create it. I have been the sole supporter of my family, single and alone. I raised my son and once he was out on his own, it was time to take care of me. But what happened next, was nothing I expected from life.
When life brings you to your knees.
My son had left for Idaho because he was tired of living in California. California is a beautiful state, that offers a lot at a real high price. I was born and raised in California so I knew of no other place to live. I grew up in the Inland Empire and most of my adult life I lived in South Orange County. I do not regret any of my action that I made in life to keep my family safe and well taken care of.
In April 2019 my wages were being garnished and my bank levied. This was after hiring a tax attorney to help me get my taxes in order, instead, my information was given to the State and they came after me right after that. I was alone, living in a resort-style apartment and needing just what I needed to get by until this happened. I still can't believe how I got through the remainder of the year because when 25% of your salary is being garnished and you live paycheck to paycheck, well, something has to give.
In November 2019 I received another letter from the State with higher demands and that is where I was done and life had brought me down to my knees. How am I suppose to take care of myself now? No one has ever helped me out, I have been it. I raised my son, was guardian to my ill father and still managed to provide for them a safe and great life, but who was going to help me?
Food for Thoughts:
I want to thank Mariska Richters Photography for this amazing picture.
One thing I learned in life was to always follow my instincts and trust me I do not always do that because I want to take the easy way out or do not want to deal with the consequences involved.
Trusting my instincts
They say God talks through your heart and I am a firm believer he also talks through your gut. When I have followed my instincts, things just fall into place with very little effort and then everything is fine. In November 2019 my son called me and I told him what was happening, I did not expect to hear what I heard from him since I am always the one in charge of what happens in everyone's life. He told me to leave everything behind and to let him care for me. WHAT!! Someone else cares for me?? Unheard of. I did not know what to think but I was amazingly happy and loved. I instantly decided to allow that to happen, to leave and have him care for me. I was going to leave my 6-figure Executive job that was more than generous to me with perks I have never imagine to have in my life and leave my resort-living lifestyle and move to Idaho.
It was the best decision I made. I am now able to design the life I have always dream of having. It was not the life I once had that was my dream life, it was my reality, I am now starting to live that life I have always dreamed. Trust in your instincts, it will never fail you.